Thursday

Thirteen Things about CITYSOUL 1. Hubby and I have been looking at a few houses to buy. A friend of mine has a neighbor moving and gave us the idea. We still have a lease for a year on our apartment, so I think we may wait. I can't believe we're actually thinking of buying a house though...I still feel like I'm 12. 2. Shedevil boss got a puppy from her boyfriend for Christmas. Being an animal lover I feel deep sorrow for the pup...though I have great joy that it's keeping her away more. 3. My new girlfriend has been back with her cheater boyfriend. I just don't get it...but I'm trying to live and let live... 4. I sold so much jewelry where I work before Christmas...major commission...though now many people are returning it...which sucks! I lose the money. 5. One of my dogs is having surgery today to remove a benign growth from his foot. I have such bad luck with my dogs having strange issues. I've had to spend enough money on them to feed a small army. 6. My Christmas tree is shedding all over my floor. I wish it could take itself down. 7. I have been having a lot of sex dreams lately...again I feel like I'm 12(yr. old boy), wonder what that means. 8. I'm not very fond of the color purple. 9. I bought a rubber snake at the grocery store yesterday...(many stares while waiting in line.) I came home and put it in my brother's room to scare him...didn't work. Then I hid it in the bathroom to scare hubby when he came home...I heard him laughing. My plans failed. I think I need to get a new hobby. 10. I'm so sick of gloomy, rainy weather. 11. I am enjoying driving again and listening to great music. Something I forgot about while living in the city. 12. & 13. No time to finish, I have to leave for work. I'm super anal about being on time...that I'm usually waaaay to early. Even if I leave late...I'm still early. I have a problem. Links to other Thursday Thirteens! 1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!)

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Post Hoiday

Tagged by Neo: to post what's in my fridge. What's great is I already had the picture. My brother was so proud of it's contents, he thought a photo would be a work of art. I would love to tag 5 of you, but since I know some of you don't have a digital camera...I am leaving it up to those of you who do...



My sister, brother, husband and I spent Christmas Day at my mother's new (unfinished) home. It was nice being with family...something I really appreciate and am thankful for, now that I live nearby. I hope you all also got everything you wanted.

It's Thursday again...

Thirteen Things about cItYsOuL 1. This is my 50th post about nothing really...but it's nice to have a home to put my ramblings in. 2. Today at work we're exchanging our secret santa gifts. Guess who I pulled out of the hat??? Oh yeah...demon boss. She said she's getting a puppy so I got her a gift certificate and some puppy toys, though my co-workers said I should have gotten her a muzzle. 3. There is a man from NY...I told him he was cute once. He became strangely obsessed. I became engaged and told him to leave me alone. He found out I moved to CT and is trying to track me down. He's been calling my cell, I ignore his messages thinking he will get the point, but a few weeks later he'll call again like nothing happend. Creepy. 4. So my new friend at work told me all about her cheating boyfriend. He cheated on his exwife and her many times. I can't understand how women can put up with that...make excuses and just pretend it never happend. I guess thats what my mother did for some time. 5. I think my new next door neighbor reported us for not having our "tiny" dogs on a leash, in the backyard with no one around. He came home one day and they were out playing with me, and he ran back up the stairs, with fear in his eyes. 10 lbs? come on. I want to leave dog crap on his door...but I guess he would know it was me. I need to own my own home so I don't have to deal with crazies anymore. 6. We had around 25 people come to our party last Saturday. It was alot of fun, but the best part was everybody brought food or wine...and our kitchen is still full. 7. I've been craving chinese food lately. 8. My favorite color is red...sometimes it changes. 9. I'm happy I'm warm in my new car...and not in NYC during the transit strike....but sorry to those of you that are. 10. My grandparents want me to visit them while they are in Florida this winter. I'm already having anxiety and making excuses not to fly there. I am extremely afraid of flying...could be post tramatic stress from being present during 911. I have dreams constantly about crashing, I'm not sure if it's a sign, or I'm just being paranoid. So I would like to avoid it at all costs. 11. My Christmas shopping is done. I told my husband for us not to get each other anything. I think we have everything, and buying things with don't need are useless. We should just take the time to go get a new car. He half thinks I'm joking and am going to get him something anyway...I'm not, so I hope he doesn't get me anything. 12. My dad is donating money to the homeless shelter he volunteers at in our (his kids) names, instead of buying presents this year. The sad thing is I think he might be doing it because it's easier than buying gifts since my mother always did it for him. Though I do think it's a good idea. 13. I need to clean my apartment and get ready for work, so 13 is over. Links to other Thursday Thirteens! 1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!)

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More Tagging Fun

Thanks to Jen, I get to tell ya'll more about me. I'm tagging anyone on my blog favorites list that hasn't been hit already.

10 years ago...I was 17! I was in highschool, in love with my highschool boyfriend. I lost my virginity that year. I was captain of the cheerleading squad and had a pack of best girlfriends that I hung out with everyday.

5 years ago...I was living in Tokyo, Japan modeling, dating a rock star.

This last year...I was living in NYC, bartending and acting. I got married...and decided to move to CT.

5 Yummy Things.....Spaghetti and pizza.....My husband.....a good cocktail.....candles that smell good...having those days where life just feels right


5 Things I Know By Heart...Anxiety and fear of the unknown...Love...how to take care of someone...that life will never be easy, but if you're going through a hard time, things always work out, or they do get easier... "FOFO" (find out, before you freak out)


5 Things I'd Do If I Had Lots Of Money......take care of my family....Travel....Have a nice home (own my own home)... have a family...I have to go with Jen on helpling abused animals

5 Places I Escape To....my room...the bath...(used to walk around the city aimlessly just thinking)...reading a good book...the outdoors

5 Things I'd Never Wear.....Fur...mary jane shoes ( don't know why, I just don't like them), Metalic and spandex clothing...hairspray ( I don't like having crunchy hair)...a bob haircut

5 Fave TV Shows.....Grey's Anatomy.....Lost.....Desperate Housewives.....House.....Extreme Home Makeover.

5 Things I Enjoy Doing.....Reading blogs.....Reading...Writing......Making things pretty(home decorating).....Talking.

It's my party!...

And I'll cry if I want to!

Last night at 1am, my new girlfriend from work called sobbing. She was supposed to meet up with her boyfriend at 1030pm. When he didn't show up she went to the bar where he was having his Christmas party. She found him in the back room making out with another girl. She ran out as he chased her screaming. I feel bad that she has to go through that. She needs to break up with him though. This isn't the first time he's done that to her...and he also cheated on his first wife. He's 37...He's not 19. He's a grown man, and if he hasn't changed by now, he probably won't. I can't see wasting time in a relationship where there is no trust. She also has a 7 year old daughter. Speaking from a girl that had a mother with a cheating husband, it really doesn't set the best example. I guess I'm telling this story because she called me...To tell me...Above all people. It kind made me feel good. Seeing as I don't any girlfriends here besides my mother and sister...And they have no choice. It's nice when someone chooses you to confide in....It's hard starting over. I feel real friends are not easy to come by the older you get.

This morning my sister shows up at my apartment to go shopping for our party tonight. She had her Christmas get together last night with everyone from the hospital. Her and Dr. Dreamy had a great night talking and getting to know one another. I guess my tone of voice wasn't exactly supportive because we ended up arguing and her backing out of coming tonight! Why do I feel like her breaking up with her fiance has anything to do with me? I do want her to be happy. I just don't want her to get hurt and make some of the same stupid mistakes I did. I guess we all need to learn on our own. If Dr. Dreamy is who she wants, then I guess I better start accepting it. Anyway, we made up and now she's napping in my room while I set up for the party.

Hmmm...I guess it will be interesting above all. Work girlfriend is now coming alone....with a bag of tears. My sister will be there....and so will fiance she is breaking up with. Nothing like a good sack of drama to top off the festivities. Add liquor to the mix, theres sure to be plenty of fun.

5 bad habits to reveal to the world...

So I've been tagged by Ellen post 5 bad habits...as if I have 5!

(probably more like 45)...and then tag 5 of you...

1) I must always be doing more than one thing at a time. If I have to blow dry my hair...I have to do it while sitting in front of the computer....while watching tv...and drinking coffee.

2) If I am alone...shopping...eating out...I like to call and talk to someone on the phone.

3) It takes me at least 2 weeks, an overflowing hamper... and running out of clothes to do my laundry.

4) I can't stand to have dirty dishes in the sink, or my house being a mess. Things need to be cleaned as they are used.

5) I read too much celebrity crap and compare it to myself. I should see more of what I have compared to people that don't. It's a big product of the industry I was in for a decade.

Now my 5 victims are: A.Star, Alanna, Ellen Jay, Jax and Jules

below 0

Can you believe it was freakin' below zero this morning? Sooo damn cold! Thank the Lord for electric blankets is all I've got to say about that! Now if I can just invent warming clothes for getting out of bed.


The other day I had a talk with my boss about the way she acts. Well, really I just asked her how my performace has been since I started...I tried to phrase it in a way that it wouldn't seem as though I was attacking, and she couldn't get defensive. I think it caught her off guard, she looked a bit stunned. She blabbered about if I wasn't doing well she would come to me, and it just, "takes some time to warm up to people"....hmmmm. My husand says thats B.S. and you can't admit to your employee that there is differential treatment. Well, whatever, now I have some dirt...if I ever need to use it. Since the talk she has been much nicer though. I don't care if it's fake or not, it's not like I want to be her friend or anything. Seriously...not my type.


I had another day off today. I went and had lunch with my mother, and finished up with the Christmas shopping. I still don't see where all the people are coming from. In NYC, ok, I understand the crowds. But in CT....on a Wednesday afternoon? Aren't people working? Just pure craziness. Our party is this Saturday. I'm usually the hostess with the mostess. I haven't done anything except buy a tablecloth. There is so much to do... My mind is on the cocktails....though with my new found no tolerance for liquor I could be passed out before the people arrive. It's funny when I think back a few years...before a big party, my friends and I would drink alot a few weeks in advance just so we could build up a tolerance. Kids! (hmm?)

Shopped OUT!

Today is the first day I did some Christmas shopping. I wasn't going to do any at all. I love buying gifts for people, I really do...it's so much better than receiving them. This year I just moved and I have so much more I need to buy...another car...a house...you know...nothing big. So since I just moved, I don't have any close friends yet, that saves me from buying those. My family had all agreed that we wouldn't buy gifts, since the holiday is so commercialized now anyway, and besides it's mostly for children. We would just spend the holiday together. That is what it's supposed to be about. Some good food, conversation...and just together time. I don't know who did it first....probably my mother, went and bought, "just something little." How can I get a gift and not give anything in return? So that brings me to the fun shopping I had at the mall today. You would think a Monday morning would be nice and quiet...but no way. People are ruthless! Pushing, shoving...I love shopping as much as the next girl, but today was even too much for me. I still have a few more things to get...many cards to mail out...and a few dozen glasses of eggnog to get me through it.

Thursday 13

Thirteen Things about CITY 1. I still am not feeling the christmas spirit. It was always my favorite holiday, not just the presents (as a kid), but there seemed to be something magical about it. I've kinda lost that magic, and decorating doesn't seem to be helping. 2. As much as I really like my new job, I dislike my new boss equally. She is rude to me, and I can't figure why, she's just a big asshole. 3. Husband and I still have not bought a second car. We are looking, but not sure what to get. The hoopty has been running fine, but we still need another...in the meantime we usually alternate with the new car. 4. It's supposed to snow tonight 4-8 inches. I still get excited about snow storms. People here think I'm crazy. It could have something to do with growing up in Florida. 5. I keep thinking more and more everyday about starting my own business. It scares me when I think I haven't figured out what I want to do with my life. I just want to be able to be creative...and work for myself...or with a partner. Yeah, doesn't everyone. 6. Husband and I have been having more and better sex since we moved... interesting...and a big plus. 7. I made a new friend at work...and I really like her! That sounds stupid, but do you know what it's like to try and make "girl" friends at my age? Not that I'm old, but everyone has all their friends, or are getting married...all that stuff. 8. I am secretly upset my sister and her fiance are on a break, and she is interested in a doctor that she works with. I like her fiance, he "fits in" with our family and what if someone else doesn't. I know thats selfish to say, thats why it's my secret and I support whatever decision she makes for herself. 9. Two months ago I could drink a ridiculous amount of alcohol in one night and be fine. I went to dinner the other night and had one beer...I had a buzz. Guess thats what they mean when they say you build up a tolerance...I've lost mine. Probably not a bad thing. 10. I'm looking forward to the Christmas party my sister and I are having at my house on the 17th, but most of the people will probably be her friends. But hey...give me a beer and I probably won't know the difference. 11. I keep wactching and reading about celebrity news...it makes me sad and I feel like I gave up, so I have to turn it off. 12. I keep wondering what I would do if I could go back to NY today...if my apartment would still be there, and I could just walk away from everything here? I don't think I would...but that doesn't mean I don't still miss it...and keep bugging myself with the same damn question! 13. My life is boring now, so I'm stopping at 12...I'm tagging any of you reading this to do Thursday Thirteens also, so my life can be more exciting by reading about yours. Links to other Thursday Thirteens! 1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!)

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My Dad

Another day off of work! What did I do to deserve such a joyous occasion!?

I just got back from having breakfast with my Dad. He told me this weekend, he and his fiance...We'll call her Mama Lizzy...Actually that is what I call her (not to her face anyway), they are taking her 7 year old niece to Manhattan for the day to look at Christmas windows and decorations. Lovely you think, right? Not to me...there are so many things wrong with that I just don't know where to start. My Dad was never much of a family man...and I don't think likes children very much, so growing up with him was a bit difficult, since he had the warmness of an ice cube. Ok maybe thats sounds a bit harsh. Don't get me wrong, I love my father. He's my father, I'll always love him, but that doesn't mean he was the best. There were no hugs...no I love you's said...only stern looks, and staying out of his way. He hated holidays...(he was raised jewish, but that's still no reason to hate Christmas), hated crowds and never wanted to go anywhere. Me taking a trip to NYC right now would be like pouring salt on an open wound, it's still too new. Now my father!...my dad...is taking another little girl to the most crowded place in the country to see freakin Christmas lights!!!! To the city I just moved home from! It hurts my heart...though I know in my head I want my father to be a better man...and to change. He has been trying and taking a kid to Manhattan is a show of how different he is. It just makes me sad that it wasn't me. It's not even a kid I know. Is all this selfish? He is decorating his house with Mama Lizzy...he hated our decorations. What if he becomes the father I always wanted...to someone else? I mean, that is what I want. I want him to be better...I guess I'm just jealous. I won't say anything to him...I've tried and he thinks it's an attack. I'm happy if he's getting joy out of things that he always seemed so frustrated by. I just wish it was with us.

December 1st

Last night my sister and I went to the store looking for decorations in preparation for our Christmas party, and just to start making the house look a little more festive. We argued over most of them...me wanting coordinating (white lights, matching ornaments), her wanting multi-colored and a large singing santa. I won...seeing as I was paying and the party is at my house. Though she is still insisting my matching theme will be boring. We came home and threw the stuff in a closet to put it up another day, and she went home.

I turned the television on to be faced with the tree lighting in Rockefeller Center. Just another reminder of something I love about the city that I had to leave behind. Now this shouldn't be such a big deal to watch on TV. Hubby and I actually went to the event one year. It was freezing and we had small girls pushing us in a mosh pit, as NSYNC was performing that night. We didn't even stay to see the lighting. We went home and finished watching on tv. Every year after that we've just stayed in our NYC apartment watching from the comfort of our warm couch, just like everyone else in the country. But the memory of it always seems more romantic than it really was...so as I felt the nostalgic pain in my stomach I decided I wasn't going to let it get me down. I opened the closet and took out the bags of decorations and tried to put a few up myself. As the carolers sang, I hammered the garland to the bar and belted out my own songs. Husband came over and tried to help and encouraged my awful singing.

I have a few decorations up. I think we're getting a tree tomorrow, since I have the day off. I'm just gonna keep singing until the spirit catches up with me.

"Jingle Bells....Batman smells..."