Shakin in my Manolos'

So yesterday Husband and I put a deposit on a new apartment in CT. He has decided to accept the job. It seems like the most positive move we can make in our lives now....so why am I soooo damn scared!? I've been in NYC since I was 18....and it's been one long party. I came here modeling and acting, and had a great time. There are more important things to me in life now, and I am no longer satisfied with an unstable career. When you're in the entertainment industry sometimes you have a few great months, working and making money....but then you never know when the next job is coming. I would like to know that there is a paycheck coming every week....at least some kind of stability. It has also given me a distorted self image...I always feel sooo old. It's not so much that every other actor is younger than me, most people here lie about their age, and I have too. So I'm admitting it now...I'm 27 yrs. old! Husband is also dying to have a kid....and with our apartment now, it would have to sleep in the bathtub...and play catch on the fire escape. I guess CT is not so far either....if I start having withdrawls....NY is just a short ride, a state away. I think all this talk is trying to calm my nerves right now! It's definitely going to take some getting used to. We may be going as soon as two weeks.....ahhhhh.